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Throwback to npcc days!!
Honestely i missed 27th batch alot alot .
Probably the best bunch of crazy asses i can ever find

Yeapp thats is a legendery revolution of me
HAHAHAHA I FIND IT FUNNY THOUGH XD
But its is definitely a journey i have never expect myself to have or be in . I started out as a person that dont really show initiative etc. But then that very day ever since im being appointed de IC that was when my npcc life and journey become so fruitful!
And there i am in 2014 standing tall and proud as a parade commander for speech day 2014
A proudest moment i ever have .

Amd of cos thankful for sng hui xin aka mama pig aka twinny the best person i can ever ask for her continuous support in everything . Thank you i love u hehe ♡

im just so exhuasted.Mentally drained. This march holiday dkesnt feel like holiday.
4/5days back to sch.screw this.

Am so tired .I really ean to give up on us.

I sucks at basically everything.

I really hate myself. Firstly,I'm dumb.Secondly,I'm still dumb.lastly,I'm still dumb.

Academic never seems to be my kind,but I always tried hard,but the results doesn't seems to prove it..
but I'm thankful my parent don't scold much,but this make me even more guilty...because they work hard and pay for all my exams need. . .and yet my results is like bullshits...but this o level,I am going to work really hard and make my parents proud... because I don't wan them to be disappointed again...

honestly, I really hate whichever person that ruin my fruendships,like seriously. who the fuck will ever do that....but there's no way I can salvage it back..o.. but this friendship means a lot to me...
remember those times where we always mug together for n level?
ay not know wat happen... but at the end of the day, I'm still here for u no matter wat...I just wan this friendship back... probably who knows, wat if this is the outcome already ..that won't change..

I know u won't read this so....
honestly,I had fallen for u...I dunno when too
but each time when u mention other girls name or other girls, my heart always sank... and I do not know how to reply...but emoji helps a lot to hide my true self....
Not that I don't wan to trust...
I tried really tried but it doesn't seems to be working.. its either I know u too well....or it is meant to be...
haix.. but what I hate is why do I keep pushing you away when I like u... if only u realised... its because I doesn't wan to get hurt so badly that's why I rather u go with other better girls than to be with me... because I'm just a burden to everyone....
I just hope de situation now will continue on better... because I had fallen hard for u...

sometimes all I need is a friend that really listens to my story anytime anywhere and help me and not judge me... thankfully I have Brendon and others... (: thanks a lot guys. .
because paranoid is back I can't trust much I had been keeping almost everything to myself....




that place used to be my second home,but ever since so many ppl left,it doesn't seems to be... its more like a jail than homes...
honestly I miss all of ur I wan u guys back, but I can't because ppl come and go ,the true one will Stoll stay together. .but all I'm left is memories with u guys... no one understands how I feel but still this memories will be de drive to my motivation...

goodnight.. (:

the hole in my heart..

I'm just an average teen girl, with drams,lies and many things in my life...
but whenever I hit the bottom of the ship, I'm thankful for those squad mates who have been there for me thru the up and the downs.

I really missed them.Very very much. honestly ,with out them,my life in NPCC is not that fum anymore. I can't confide my feelings to them during training etc...
then also, being the parade commander for speech day, I was quite gloomy because none of my squad mate is in it...
but thankfully my squad mates took urn to come back and support me thru every training. with them around I feel so much better... more confident.. remember last week my command was suckish then  I was too soft and I was guilty and I cried thankfully vincent was there to comfort me.
till now,I still imagined my squad mates are there whenever I shout command ... because thy make me feel secure <3 nbsp="" p="">
Dear 27th ,
I may not be the best unit adjutant to ur, but definitely the time spent and ur and taking ur was worth the while.U guys are the best things that open to me since then and till de future!!
-leona