Have you ever feel so paranoid,to the extend that every single things others do,for u that u even doubt whether it is real or fake...
Have you ever lost that much of confidence to the extend that u doesnt dare to think positive?all those positive thinkings just stop coming in?
For me yes i did.
I really dunno wat struke me so hard that, i just feels really paranoid.. i just really doubt many things,when people treat me good,i feel that maybe its like just to make me happy,but in de fact, they really really meant for my goodwill,but i just really cant help it but to doubt, no matter how much i psyched myself that they were for my own good but i cant stop all those thinkings.i just cant i really dunno why.i'm really sorry to all those ppl whom i had doubt, but i really cant helped myself...
pratically, now i have lost all my confidence in myself...many events had happen that causes me to be so demoralised and its just really hit me real hard.
Is just all those things whom we put real hard work and effort in it, that made us confidence and motivates us,that we will do well,all those positives thoughts but in the end we just couldnt make it etc and we just got hit so so badly,that u can never believe in yourself that u can do well....
u can say i'm demoralise,insecure,sensitive etc but its my life.
Either u accept me,or else just leave my life.I doesnt wan to be hurt like how i was in the past.
I have a bunch of friends that are with me,and i am trying really hard to help myself for them.
They are my source of motivation.
